Woke up this morning still feeling the after effects of alcohol poisoning from saturday night, but it wasn't nearly as bad as before.
So, I got up, went to school, and worked for most of the day. Had lunch, then went back to do more work. Then at about 2 that afternoon, I just got really depressed. I don't know what it was, but I just got into a terrible mood. Started thinking about suicide and stuff, cutting myself, and just bad stuff like that. I thought about how I had like no friends (which is bullshit btw), and wound up thinking about how I could kill myself the easiest. I didn't really get to the answer for that question though, because when I got home I was still thinking about it, and I got onto my computer, just browsed a few sites that I usually check on a daily basis. Then my mom started bugging me to check my application for UBC, which is my first choice university that I was 100% sure I would not get into.
Logged onto their website, looked around.
Noticed that I had a new notification waiting for me.
Clicked on it.
You've been accepted!
Hmm... Probably got accepted to arts. Guess I'll just end up going to my second choice school anyways, because I want to do science.
Clicked on it to see my admission offer... Accepted to Science!
This is the 5th best school in the country, and I got accepted to one of their hardest programs? WTF?!
Turned around my day in seconds. I am feeling great now, I am remotivated for school, I'm going to see a bunch of my friends tomorrow night, I have everything set up for grad, and next year is looking super promising. Needless to say, I'm as stoked as can be right now!
Funny how that works isn't it?
Yeah, I know how that goes - not the alcohol poisoning per say, cause I don't touch the stuff (I'd be living under a bridge in 2 years if I started drinking). But the quick drop into depression... I can go from being on top of the fucking world to looking at that giant bottle of pills and wondering how many would it take? It'd be so much easier to just go to sleep and not wake up, not have to deal with any of this shit anymore. But then I remember the people I'd end up leaving behind, and compliments of the bloody forum and such, how many Friends - you for example - who would just never know what became of me?
ReplyDeleteAnyways - ends that ramble - I'm a firm believe in the idea that if you just stick it out a little while longer something good will happen and you'll be glad you're alive..
Looks like that happened quicker with you today =) May I just say CONGRATULATIONS! And..... the first thought that came to my mind as I hit that spot in this post FUCKING AWESOME!!!!!! (I actually said it out loud). Hahaha you've earned it and deserve it.
None of this WTF shit, there is only ONE other person in our general generation I have ever known who talked about the same stuff you do now when he was your age (I think he's 22 now?) and was as into Physics and such, and all this stuff you know.. And that is Kyle, and you've heard me talk about Kyle. You remind me a great deal of him actually - its probably why I like you so much, because he is simply my favorite person in the world.
So now you've got into this school for Science (I still wish you'd just come to WPI =p but thats selfishness). Dude I'm stoked (for you). I can't begin to tell you how happy and excited I am for you. CONGRATUFUCKINGLATIONS!
ok... I'll stop now, as I think my comment is as long as if not longer than your post... Me and a keyboard at 1AM is a BAD BAD combination!
Hahaha Congratulations again man.
Jack