Alright, this statement might seem ridiculous to some at the young age of 18, but I urge you to read on and think about my reasons for this and the story behind it before deciding that I'm just being a foolhardy teenager.
Alright, so this started a few months ago when I was trying to come up with something to write some music about. I came up with this huge crazy album concept somewhat influenced by Porcupine Tree's Fear of a Blank Planet.
I was looking around on tumblr at pictures of ruins, and I found some really cool stuff. It got me thinking, what if some huge disaster happened and humanity was just wiped out in a second? What if our infrastructure, buildings, and creations all stayed behind as a record of us? What would visitors to Earth say when they got here and saw the ruins of our society?
This got me thinking about all the terrible things we've done, the pollution, destruction of natural spaces, etc etc, and I kind of thought that this kind of situation would be one in which all our sins were laid out to see. These visitors to earth would have never known why we did the things we did, how we got there, or what humans were like. All they would see is our impact on the earth, and we would be judged as a whole; the sum of everything humanity has ever done would be there to see.
I eventually decided that the album might be named "Visions From a Blank Planet," kind of in tying with Porcupine Tree's Fear of a Blank Planet.
So what would the artist name be?
Well, I like the idea of albums that just have a huge, crazy concept that encompasses a ton of ground. I like the albums that depict the whole of something, the good and the bad, the parts that make people happy, and the parts that people bury in the deepest corners of their mind so they never have to face them. So what would be a good name for the "band" so to speak?
Perhaps "Sum" would be appropriate.
It would encompass all the ideas I had about the music quite well, and be a pretty cool name for a group.
The story breaks off for a while temporarily, as we move on towards the present.
I was listening to Ky-Mani Marley, when I remembered he had a super cool tattoo of a face with super long dreads on his arm. This got me thinking that it would be fucking awesome to have a lion tattoed onto my bicep. Now, I started to think about the lion. What would it mean? Why would I have it? I couldn't really think of any good ideas, except that lions are cool, and rasta is cool, and rasta lions are super cool. I don't think that any part of me or what I aspire to could really accurately be depicted by a lion. This was a dumb idea, it lasted about 48 hours.
Jump ahead 2 weeks or so.
I was then sitting on the couch at home, writing my blog entry about university, priorities and such. Then I decided that I needed to get my priorities straight, and use every moment of every day as best I could, or something like that. Then I thought, how can I remind myself of who I am and what my priorities are every day?
I thought that perhaps I could make up some kind of saying. But no, thats far too simple and is prone to be forgotten. Maybe I could just like... wear some kind of necklace or bracelet or ring or something. Naahhhh, those are super prone to getting lost or broken.
Then it hit me... OH MY GOD A TATTOO!
Perhaps this would work. However, I don't want to have this be something I would regret later. I'd have to think about what I wanted.
At some point during this thinking process I remembered my idea of Sum for that band name. Well I sure as fuck don't want "SUM" scrawled across my skin. Thats a fucking terrible idea. But wait... There is a symbol for sum! The greek letter Sigma!
Hmm.... Well that might work. It actually might. Lets see if it stands for anything....
Well, google is telling me that in conjunction with other greek letters its a frat/sorority sign, but I would have mine without them. It would be a lone sigma.
No gang in their right mind would ever use a sigma to symbolize anything.
The only meaning I could find was Sum. Or stress in physics, but sum is the better known one.
So why get a symbol with no meaning? Because then I can make my own, personal meaning for it.
So what would it mean?
In keeping with the sum idea, it would symbolize a holistic viewpoint on the world. Yin and Yang, dark and light are all equally necessary parts of everything.
The ups and downs of life are parts of a whole. The bad times and the good times.
It would symbolize me as a whole - I am made up of my actions. They speak for me. What do I do with my life? Where do I go? It would serve as a reminder that I am in control and have the reigns. If I want something or want to be something, then I have to make that a part of my life.
It would also be a reminder of the fact that I am part of a whole - the human whole. As a part of that whole, what do I want to contribute? What do I want to do? How am I going to communicate and act around other people? All these are things I want to remind myself of daily.
Another thing it would mean would be that we are greater than the sum of our parts. Every day, aspire to be something greater, something more than what you were before. Be bigger than yourself, and do your best in all things.
It would symbolize living life to its fullest, being the best person I could to the people around me, and not wasting any more time.
I think that those are pretty damn good reasons.
Random bonus reasons:
Sigma is a symbol used in math and physics. I intend to go into physics as a career, and will be using a lot of math in future.
It will look badass as fuck.
Having a symbol instead of a statement or actual picture or something means it has whatever meaning I decide it has - if I don't like some part of the ideology I associate with it, then I can change that. If I don't want to tell people my actual reasons for getting it, I don't have to. It means something to ME. Its for ME. Not anyone else.
The other bonus to a symbol is that its kind of cryptic and mysterious. I've always had a curiosity with mysteries and stuff like that. Kind of fitting isn't it?
Now where would I get it? Bicep? No. Chest? No. Buttox? No....
Well, my friend has a tattoo on the underside of her left wrist.... Its a really good spot because its still something you'll see a lot, but its still easy to hide if you have to.
So why not on the underside of my right wrist? And having it so that faced me? That way, it would be on the hand that I use for everything. Its ideology would metaphorically be present in everything I do, and the symbol would always be there. It would serve as a guide for my actions.
I think this is a fairly good idea all in all, and not something I'll regret. However, I'm still going to wait for school to end before getting it. I'll do it some time this summer, which means I have a solid 2 months to think about it thoroughly before I do it. I can really give this a lot of thought, and not make it a spur-of-the-moment thing. If I stick with it, then I know its a good idea.